Navigating the Rollercoaster

A wise man once said 'Life is a Rollercoaster' and ain't that the truth!

I think if you ask any parent that has lost a baby, they will tell you exactly this, but one of these dips was hidden in a place where I didn't expect it to be.

Hidden in the blanked of fear I felt stopping me from taking those first steps forward after baby loss. It's a tough topic, but one that I think needs to be talked about openly and honestly.

Let's be real here – losing a baby knocks the wind out of you. It's like the world suddenly stops spinning, and you're left standing there, trying to catch your breath in a vacuum of grief and confusion. And amidst all that chaos, fear creeps in like an unwelcome guest at a party you never wanted to host.

I remember those first few steps forward felt like trying to walk on a tightrope without a safety net. I was scared – scared of what the future held, scared of feeling happiness again when my heart was shattered into a million pieces.

But you know what? Fear is a sneaky little liar. It whispers all sorts of nonsense in your ear, trying to convince you that you're alone in this, that you'll never find your way back to happiness again. But here's the thing: fear doesn't know squat about your strength. I don't think you realise how strong you really are.

So (after more than a few false starts), I decided to kick fear to the curb and take those first steps forward, shaky legs and all. And you know what I found? I found a whole community of incredible humans who had been through the same thing – parents who understood the pain, the fear, the rollercoaster of emotions that comes with baby loss.

I leaned on them like a crutch in those early days, and let me tell you, it made all the difference. Whether it was a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear, or just someone to sit with in silence, having that support system was like a lifeline in the storm.

And slowly but surely, I started to find my footing again. I allowed myself to feel all the feels – the anger, the sadness, the overwhelming love – without judgment or shame. I honoured my baby's memory in my own way trying to ignore the noise about what the world expected me to do.

And you know what else? I discovered that even in the darkest of times, there's a glimmer of hope shining through. It might seem small at first, barely a flicker in the darkness, but it's there, waiting for you to grab onto it and let it light your way forward.

So, if you're standing at the edge of that scary abyss right now, feeling like you'll never find your way out, just know this: you are not alone. There's a whole army of us out here, cheering you on, ready to walk beside you every step of the way and you've found us.

Take those first steps forward, my friend, even if they're wobbly and uncertain. Trust that you're stronger than you know, and that brighter days are waiting just around the corner.

And remember, fear may be loud, but love and strength is so much louder.